Decisions made

So; I mentioned I went for a trip up country; as above the equator. Yeah; I went visitng West side and my friend who lives there. I had a wonderful time and did some revelations and soul searching. Decided to ease on the fear of the human connection aka romance in my life. That train of thought may have been solidified by my kiss but it's something that's been bugging me long time. The proses and novels that I write are definitely something to go by. I guess I am recognising this inconspicuous year as a year of doing something with what should be my heart. It's just a void really; but I empathise (Ironic yes) enough to know what I'm supposed to feel. Okay maybe empathise is not the right word; read covers it better. I'll look for attraction because way too much of rushing into what people want to be love is happening around me. I want to enjoy the attraction; if for nothing else than the false sense of tangible, long term probability it gives people in the form of relationships. Do I need luck? I think a starting point is better suited.