how i am of lately sometimes the world is brilliant. it's this grand beauty with an essence that is thriving and amazing and uplifting. it all makes being apathetic that much less appealing
i know what it feels like to be able to recognise the beauty of the earth. to look up into the sky and see the ranging tones of blue or the golden hue of a cloud reflecting sunlight. that was a few years ago.
nowadays, i see the same tones, the same lighting but it evokes nothing. it inspires nothing; i don't appreciate it and it looks like it's a sin. according to st. paul, it is.
apathy is a sin and i know why. to be unresponsive; unwelcoming of the Almighty's works should evoke shame. it is disappointing and saddening and ungrateful. because God can decide not to grace us with the earth's beauty.
nevertheless, my mind's unchanged. i will recognise the beauty; i will recognise the intensity. will i stand up from the hallway and check out of the grey mood hotel? i don't know. not today anyway.
